Possibly Pregnant

When I started this I mention that the Little Lady and I had made another pregnancy attempt and were waiting for the results. We’ve checked and checked and the tests keep coming back negative. Now this wouldn’t be our first time to get a negative, we’ve actually gotten very accustom to it, but she’s over 45 days into her cycle. Mama A, as much as we love her to pieces, has been overtly sensitive lately. I tend to be rather insensitive. It’s been difficult. It also has me thinking, what if she is pregnant. I know, I know that’s the plan, but when I really think about it I start to get anxious.

Am I really ready to be up all night? Can I handle 2 a.m. CVS runs for Tums and chocolate covered raisins? And the back rubs. Thank god mom is a massage therapist, I can pay her to do most of those, that’s not insensitive right? I really do owe her though. Mama A turned into Mama Slave when I was pregnant. She had to learn to laugh in my face convincingly enough to make me laugh when I was on a hormone induced tirade. That is no easy task. The baby stuff I got down I’ve been taking care of babies for years, and I do such a good job I actually did it for a living once! It’s the pregnancy part. Or more the non-pregnancy role I have in this situation. It makes me nervous that I won’t be as loving or as patient as Mama A was with me. I have some big shoes to fill.